Today is my 2 year wedding anniversary and I was hoping to have a meaningful day with my husband.... free from fighting and drama. I was leaving the house to go buy him a card and I saw a travel mug with the OW last name on it in the garage. I was seething. He had said he wasn't seeing her an had broken it off with her (about 2.5 weeks ago). My intuition/holy spirit had been telling me otherwise though. I felt like I didn't want to do anything nice for him anymore. I went back into the house where he was napping and then I sent the OW a text (bad idea I know...) asking if they were really done because if not then I would not work on things. I saw my husbands phone vibrate and numerous texts came in, actually 6 texts. They were from his friend Shawn, but I knew at that moment that he had just put her number under a code name. When he woke up I confronted him and asked him to read the texts from his friend "Shawn" in front of me. He refused. And there you go....
When I told him that I was finished working on us he asked me "well what have you been doing?". That is the favorite move of the infidel-switch focus/blame onto the innocent spouse. At this point I don't know what to do. I obviously have no reason to continue to work on my marriage if there is the OW still involved. I am not thinking divorce, but I will no longer put in effort to work on anything until I know she isn't in the picture. I feel so defeated. Everyone thought that it sounded too goo to be true that he just suddenly broke it off with her, and I guess it was. I know God can heal any situation and any person, but the person has to be willing. At this point through his actions my husband has clearly said he isn't willing. I was praying to God for truth about my husbands fidelity, but I didn't truly want to believe he was still seeing her. Truth hurts. Ouch!
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